The old Heather would've texted and prodded and pushed with this last D11 situation until Smokey finally budged and acted the part of the caring father. I would have pushed him to be his "better" self. That's not my job anymore. Or ever.
I'm going to take a bubble bath. I'm going to paint my toenails and pick up the house. I'm going to exercise.
I'm going to touch base with the tech writing people.
I'm going to enjoy my life, get some stuff done and be happy.
DAMMIT! Screw him. Dumb, stupid, sicko, bastard, creep, pondmuckin, sh!t bastard of a father. ELF HIM!
In other news... I joined EHarmony. Now, before everyone gets all...are you ready and are you getting divorced and all THAT...I joined with the intention of providing myself a little safe flirtation. I didn't post my picture and I used an alias.
I just want a safe way to sorta explore. I never dated in high school and this stuff is really a foreign turf to me.
I have several conversation offers. One guy is really sweet and even likes Monty Python!! Smokey doesn't. Jerk.
Anyway. I need some diversion right now. I have a ton of writing/work to do in order to build up the savings and I need a fun outlet. This will do while the weather is cold and dreary. Not looking to date necessarily, more to meet some friends and have some fun conversation.
Also, does anyone have any suggestions for workouts that tone? I was looking at pictures from when I was in good shape a few years ago before BD and I had worked all summer to get in shape. I was a size 8 and I still looked kinda beefy. I hate how I photograph. But, it's frustrating that I will lose weight and still feel heavy. I know weights are the answer but I'm not sure what I'm doing and how to slim down using weights. Or maybe Yoga? I want look long and lean.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
