I too go back and forth with these feelings. the spinning

some days I think I am done. other days I am amazed at the script. I still don't want d, so I wait.

h was mia too for v day. his bday is next week. the kids will be disappointed if he leaves town( he travels a lot with his job) h will say, just another day. kids see it differently.

I have wanted to ask h about the status of ow. is she still in the pic. I know it doesn't matter really.

yes, our hearts at times are heavy. but the joy, the sweetness of our children, that is the prize.


M48 H50
M21 T26
S20 at college),S17,D15-cp, dev. delay- cogniv 5yrs old
PA confirmed 7/2012
H separates 9/2012
H move home 2/13& 7/13 lasted 2weeks.ILYNILWY
OW still in picture. h filed 10/13