Separated and on a Walk

[paul19510]

Journal. The tripj is goin g well I only mentione d sitxh once to a friend wbo has been with me tthru it. Other than that we are having fun. I had drinks and snackss with the other parents after the kids went to ed. The cosch brought some delicious home brew he made...ina. gatorade cooler. Lol. We shared cookies and chocolate too. Yum. Iam awake early because I am usually up early at ho.e. s12 has been a squirmer all. Night. Not used to having anyone next to me. Its been a year since I did.

Looking forward to first round of games today. W repeated the have fun thing when I sent her a pic of my kids being goofy. These days will never come again. She missed it but I can't feel frustrated and rjin what I am enjoying.

I've begun to tell myself thst this is my life. I am single. I left flowers on the kitchen counter for D16. I thanked her for watching the house and pets and told her I was proud of ber. W continues to say thar D is up to no good. I don't think that is the case and I have neighbors on either side as angels on her shoulder. She knows this and is happy with it.

I will get up soon to find food for me and the kids. Life goes on. Someday I hope to sleep next to someone again. I do miss thst. Baby steps.