I am lost, this isn't me. I have always been a social chemelian, I am a different person depending on who i am with - but I don't know who "I" really am.
I need to work on myself - anti depressants, my health, fitness, friends. All good starts.
I am going to plan my week to ensure I GAL, me time, friends time an very importantly family time.
I am on a diet. I have joined the gym and met new friends to train with. I plan to swim and take the dog on huge walks.
My fashion sense has gone down hill - I dress like my dad! So I plan to update my wardrobe as funds allow.
I will take my kids out and about - we will be active and have fun.
The most important practical 180 I can do is learn to drive. I have been so dependent on the W, this will be a major lift to my lifestyle and enable the to get around more wih the kids and to see friends.
The neediness is a difficult one - it really is part of the depression. But I will go as dark as possible. I will be more detached and self sufficient.
Today (valentines) I have her gifts that me and the children had made and have cooked dinner for when she gets home (Indian food). Was this not the best move? I did it with zero expectations.
Thanks for your thoughts Recruit
Me 41, W 39 Married 5 years Together 10 years S4, D2
