I am a little confused about a feeling I am having.
I find myself feeling a bit sorry for my W. With all that I am doing for myself, the confidence and knowledge I am gaining. I know that I will become that man my W fell in love with again. I hope this isn't taken as me being cocky by anyone on here.
Question is will it be my W who comes back and want to work on R or will it be someone else who gets to reap the benefits of my awakening?
The answer right now is I want my W. That could change down the road.
I understand that the W needs to trust that these things will be permanent and at this point she still doesn't.
That is why I struggle with the thought that she may want to work on herself but does not have the means at the moment.
Maybe she doesn't and is happy as hell to be moving on but then again I start to feel sorry for her because without realizing where we went astray or owning up to her part in our failed M, the chances of being happy in the future are greatly reduced.
I hope this doesn't come across as me being arrogant. I feel such a sense of power after really taking a hard look at myself and my life, and realizing that it is not easy to admit to yourself that maybe you were not that person you thought you were. Is it ok to feel this way?
I thought "Hey I'm x and I am a great guy. How can you disagree with that? Its you that has something wrong not me."
It wasn't until all this mayhem started that I discovered the above statement was full of inconsistencies.
No matter what I say now or the frustrations I air on here. I do love my W and always will. I want her to be happy in her life even if it is not with me.
Me 47/W 34 T 16 M 13 No kids BD 6/2013 W asked that I move out 6/2013 I moved back and W is upset with this 12/2013 separate beds not much talking Served D Complaint 5/2014 W moved out 9/27/2014
