melissa - gotta get back to me

[paul19510]

For some unknown reason, I decided to look at H's match.com profile. He added more photos. Photos THAT I TOOK (during family times that WE spent together), and with MY SON in them.

Am I being overemotional, or is this just disgusting? How can he be so unbelievably selfish? Like our time together meant absolutely NOTHING to him.

I really feel like calling him out for putting my son on match dot f-ing com, but I know he just doesn't give a fvck.

I hate his guts.

I know none of that showed any kind of growth or compassion or whatever blah blah blah . . . I'm just so hurt right now, and it offends me that he sends me emails saying he cares about me when he so obviously cares only about himself.

Gotta finish up the pity party so I can pick up kids at school. I really thought I was through the worst of this, but I can see that's yet to come.

At least I had an hour at the gym with my friends and getting my ass kicked by a trainer. That's about the only hour today that I haven't wanted to drive my car over a cliff (or maybe over my H).

hi M! So sorry you hurt like that. svcks!

Write this one on your hand...and I say it with a smile because I would do this too I think...Note to self, don't bother looking at that anymore. it hurts

point 2, don't bother calling him out on it because then he'll have the satisfaction of knowing you bothered to look for him. Somehow that won't be a good thing.

point 3, go make YOU feel good. Remember the massage, nails...eat fast food 'til it hurts....I dunno.

point 4. you have an ENTIRE UNSUPERVISED WEEKEND with no attachments. Drive it like a stolen car. be free. have fun with friends, yourself, whatever. let some random dude flirt with you and then drop him on his head LOL. Just remember you've got a lot to offer the world. Remember that you are a really cool person and H's opinion on things doesn't count

The other day some random woman started a convo with me. She started kinda flirting. we had a fun chat for a few minutes. Nothing came of it, but it just must have happened because I was in a good place at that moment and it just showed. She picked up on it. W hasn't shown me any real interest in a long time. it felt nice to be human and have someone think I was attractive.

Like I said earlier, do what makes you happy and drive it like its stolen

legal disclaimer: I am not advocating you do anything you don't like or feel completely comfortable with. I am not suggesting you go have a random fling (unless you leave the state first and there's tequila involved...LOL)

Enjoy. Remember we want details I hope this made you laugh a little. We need that around here. the rest of it pretty much svcks