melissa - gotta get back to me

[melissag]

For some unknown reason, I decided to look at H's match.com profile. He added more photos. Photos THAT I TOOK (during family times that WE spent together), and with MY SON in them.

Am I being overemotional, or is this just disgusting? How can he be so unbelievably selfish? Like our time together meant absolutely NOTHING to him.

I really feel like calling him out for putting my son on match dot f-ing com, but I know he just doesn't give a fvck.

I hate his guts.

I know none of that showed any kind of growth or compassion or whatever blah blah blah . . . I'm just so hurt right now, and it offends me that he sends me emails saying he cares about me when he so obviously cares only about himself.

Gotta finish up the pity party so I can pick up kids at school. I really thought I was through the worst of this, but I can see that's yet to come.

At least I had an hour at the gym with my friends and getting my ass kicked by a trainer. That's about the only hour today that I haven't wanted to drive my car over a cliff (or maybe over my H).