You are awfully hard on yourself. Have you always been this way??
You were hurt, betrayed, shocked, etc... I think I sat in the garage and bawled my eyes out the day I found out. Not exactly something I would have done otherwise!
My point being...don't beat yourself up. You are already down and I don't see anything you did as unforgivable.
My H hasn't spoken to his former best friend in months and months. He withdrew from him, just as he did from me.
I think there could be a million and one reasons why the bf hasn't contacted you. Maybe HE feels embarrassed at how he tried so hard to convince YOU!! Who knows. YOu didn't do anything wrong. Let it go. Men are different about such things and maybe he feels it would be wrong of him to "take sides" at this point.
It wasn't until much later in the situation that my H's former bf felt comfortable reaching out to me. It was like he needed to see for himself that H really had gone off his rocker. A lot of evidence had to stack up before he was convinced. Who knows!
Let it be and take care of yourself.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
