Thank you - both of you for your responses.... I guess whether it is (or isn't) MLC I have to grieve the relationship that I THOUGHT it was - Regardless of whether WAP decides to ever look my way again (or whether I would take him back) I have to grieve? Right? I guess I just wasn't prepared to go through this level of grief.. I have a few vey good friends who I have spoken to and they understand. Not so much about MLC but friends who have known me and D for a long time and who love us. So I can lean on them to some degree. I am also aware of not overstepping my welcome... And in the end my relationship with WAP was mine - so I am the only one who can truly face the feelings. Maybe I am in denial but I keep coming back to MLC - not ignoring his past - but just in relation to the way he has handled the whole thing in the last 6 weeks. I do need to be kind to myself - I feel so fragile Thanks everyone x
