I honestly got emotional reading you guys post. Yes I think I made some mistake. She was not the type that say much about whats going on in head. You can't hardly read her. She will do anything to keep the peace. I saw some stuff but never address the problem. I thought her only problem was residency not knowing we have some deeper issue.
1) we had one two blow out because of her contacting some guys in her past. I find out about one particular email from her ex fiancé and accuse her of emotional affair. We never address it further by seeking professional help. I think that was my fought for not seeking help or addressing the issue.
2)we have access to each other email account. 2yrs ago she change her password and refuse to give me her new password. Once again I ignore that and refused to address the issue thinking we can't do wrong. I ignore all the changes. Never made mention of it or talked about it.
3) she called me a mess on several occasion, not necessarily because of my look but because I've properties everywhere. I own couple of investment properties. She was fine when I was buying this properties, but they became a issue for her 2yrs ago. I've complain to her of tenant not paying rent on time or paying anything at all. I spoke to her about this and she'll advice me kick them out. In most cases I don't listen. I still do me by working with this tenants. She was right. Why will I allow people to take advantage of me like that. She told me to sell at least four of the renter properties, but I hardly listen. I blame the housing market for not able to sell. To be honest, I never made any effort. I bought them for retirement and wasn't willing to let go.
4) I think i also gave up on me, the GQ man she feel Over heel for. I got comfortable and think I will Always be A-man. I stopped biking and going to the gym. I eat a lot and gain few pounds. She on the hand was into her body. She complain of my weight and sometime suggest we work out together. I'll give the sorry excuses. I'll sometime tell her I had a long day and need to get some rest. I'll sit around and watch her do some exercise at home. I will also sit and watch TV while she's out running. We used to go to gym together and ride our bikes on weekend . I blame my myself for ignoring her thinking I'll always be the A-man and working like a dog. I know now that money doesn't buy happiness and love.
5) The new house we building is also a big headache now. The whole idea came from her. She wanted a bigger house with more bedroom and great neighborhood. 1yr into the project she complain that I'm doing too much. She complain that my focus is only on the house. She told me to take a break but I never did. She even made comment about me living in the house by myself. I guess I wasn't listening then. All my focus was working my self to death to finish the house.
6) she also complain of me not taking care of myself. Mostly the grooming part. I think I let myself go from working crazy hrs at work. Non stop Moonlighting to continue with building the house. I completely forget that you have to connect with a woman through her heart and not all the material stuff.
