Thank you both - I really do appreciate your kind words. I thought I would look at a few positives that I have done for myself (and D) today/
- I finally completed the moving of all the important items that we have into the storage centre. It is now a load off my mind that that is done. Even though it was hard seeing all of our gear loaded up into a tiny space I am reminded of just how much I have successfully dealt with in the last six weeks....) - I bought some nice shower gel and a had a long shower and painted my nails - I bought some healthy veg and am going to make a stir fry for us tonight - I went to Mass today ( the first time in this city for 2 and a half years) - I introduced myself to the parish priest and I have registered D and I now in the parish. I have also made an appointment to speak with him in confidence early next week...
Interestingly the homily today referred to the parable re "no external force can make a person "unclean". A persons "uncleanliness" (Adultery, fornication, theft, deceit etc etc etc) comes from within that person.No matter what spin they put on it. I was sitting quietly in prayer after Mass thinking about this. This is a lesson we could all learn from when WAS our blaming us for their depression (n my case) etc etc etc
I know not everyone is religious here but I am learning to lean on God more and more every day.
I don't know how I ma going to do it but I have a growing sense that I just want to be the best person I can be - for both myself and my D.
Thank you for caring - its not easy every minute of the day (this morning I was crying) but I am trying to move ahead.. x
