Wouldn't wish this on anyone

[artsy]

I think I would be more comfortable with my friend, but I feel like I should let my H take me. He's a "fixer", and this would be right up his alley.

I guess I feel this is an opportunity to rebuild some closeness. I was surprised he offered to go with me.

[artsy]

It's not that I would be "uncomfortable" with H there, it's just unchartered territory.

[labug]

So, you have your answer.

[artsy]

Yes, I think I do

It's still 2 weeks away, so if he disappears on me again I still have someone who will go with me. But I'm putting positive vibes out in to the universe...

Thanks!!

[artsy]

Really really bad day today. I am in the full throws of a pity party. My mood today is haunted by the thoughts of:am I being punished for something??? I mean, first S, then the skin cancer, and all of it right in the middle of a career change so I'm unemployed and stressed about money and have been thrust back into single parenthood (D12 is H SD- and he has made no effort to spend time with her. And, her real dad is pretty much non-existent. So, I have a knack of picking winners)

I know my sitch is much more fortunate than some others. But why all this now? I believe in destiny/fate/free will/God/spirits....the whole shebang. So what is this? A lesson? A test? A punishment?

Any spiritual folks out there have some thoughts?

I'm ALL up in my emotions today---sorry!!! Lol

[artsy]

So much for those positive vibes I spoke of a couple posts earlier!!! ^^^^^

[artsy]

So grumpy the past 3 days! Gotta get over myself...

We were supposed to hang out this morning, but there was a "plumbing issue" at our rental house that he had to take care of, so no visit. I'm okay with that, because I am little Ms. Crabby Pants right now, any way.

My daughter made him a card, and he's supposed to swing by tomorrow and get it, although it won't surprise me if he "forgets" or if something comes up and he can't...and that's my bad mood talking!!!

Grrrrrr! I'm more frustrated with myself right now than him.

[MamaB]

I call it "having to be bombarded with valentine Day propaganda while going through a S/D syndrome" but grumpy works too.:-)

[2ndTimeHurt]

Ya vday is gonna s*ck tomorrow.

[artsy]

Yeah, I'm sure that's not helping!!! Lol

BUT!!! After tomorrow, I've got a few months of peace until the next special occasion/awkwardness sitch to deal with.

We can do this!!!!!!