Paul, take a break, 24-48 hours and come back and read again. Everyone who posts to us has something to offer.

It may be just one thing but we have to be ready to hear it.

Don't throw out the baby with the bathwater.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss