Good baby steps B....Except for the second similar statement in two days. Two statements that should resound in you of the old thoughts...old behaviors....the very mentality that got you here.
Find those statements in your posts!!
I will give you a hint....A pessimist see's the glass as half empty and the optimist sees the same glass as half full.
Change how you see things B....Reality is based upon perception. Change your perception and you change your world.