Listen , you haven't made me depressed!! Nor upset!! What your posts HAVE done is wake me up to an alternative that I needed to face. So I need to thank you for it. What I haven't done in all of this is attend, in any real and important way, to WAP's HISTORY. I knew it was there but somehow did not connect what is happening now to what has happened with him before. I have fought SO HARD to be with my D. During my divorce I fought extremely hard against my ex-H - she is my absolute priority in my life. There is nothing that is more important than her welfare and well being. I have found out apartment that is literally two houses form her school gate (you can see her school buildings from or sitting room window). the only potential drawback is that it is round the corner from WAP's house. But I had to bite the bullet if I wanted her close to her school. It is an area that she loves and knows. That is the trade off for keeping things consistent and safe and secure for her. That is something I just need to deal with.... My job is fine - my boss has been AMAZING. I have been on sick leave for four weeks and he has given me the option to work from home for the this week) next week is mid term break) - so my work have been completely understanding of this process. I am very lucky that I am valued in my job. Mind you I have worked extremely hard and I have a very strong work ethic which is probably why they have been happy to support me. I rang my boss from Australia once i received BD email and he got it straight away....he is a father himself.... I do have legal recourse as we lived with him for longer than two years. However I don't want that route. I have removed our things. We have our place and we are safe and secure here. There is nothing left to fight for... Despite being absolutely broken apart by this with the help of friends I have managed to get us into our new place lock stock and barrel in a month. D has been at school bar one day when she had a very bad cold. I do feel as if I have done my best for us. I have been extremely practical on a lot of fronts. I redirected our mail 3 weeks ago (that shocked WAP)...so I guess I am very efficient when I need to be... I want to move through - I hate being in this much pain - I hate the fact that I put my soul and my heart and my trust in a man who has the propensity top do this to myself and my child regardless of whether it is MLC or not... His deletion/no contact with us and the affair has been the worst part of all of this. Thank you for your support x
