Hey Blues, I'm right there with you today. Sorry I can't offer up any good advice, just commiseration and empathy.
Just curious, are you ever confused about who your H really is? Do you think that he is a great guy but just having a problem right ow, or is it that he was never that great and is now coming out with the real him? Or maybe he used to be great, but has now changed forever. Sometimes I just don't know at all.
I find that for PMA, I just need to GAL or at least be productive. I went to the gym with my girlfriends this morning (exercised AND got girl time - jackpot!), then ran some errands, and I am off to get some things for my V-day plans with my kiddos. Um, OK, and I also ate a large cookie . . . it did make me feel more positive.
Find something fun to do today, maybe with your kids, maybe just on your own - and your PMA will come back, I promise. If not, get to work on your gratitude list!!
I agree, one of the hardest things about all of this is having to face the fact that your H is not who you thought he was, and you don't ever know whether he will see things from a rational perspective again. It svcks.
That's why everyone harps on taking care of you. So cry for a bit and then get on with the GAL!
(((Blues)))
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
