Reaching out for support and advice 3

[bluesgal]

I'm reading up on Raines posts. Very similar stuff except many H out there seem to talk to their LBS and make contact and be honest. Why am I married to the closed off liar that never contacts me or his kids?

I am doing well with detaching, but then I have a feeling of "Hey, this isn't fair" "I deserve better".

I am cute, smart, funny, loyal, good income. Why would I want to live another day being lied to and treated like garbage.

Then I remember, because I don't want my H to have some crazy affair partner half raising my kids. Because I'm not doing anything different now than I would if I was D-except for dating. And, I get to see my kids 100% of the time since we don't have a formal custody arrangement.

There's just that unshakeable feeling of betrayal when a spouse treats your marriage like it doesn't/didn't exist. Very hurtful.

I just feel like this will never end. He will never wake up. He will never stop blaming. He will never be a good man again. Boy, I need a PMA lesson today.