Rebel without a clue

[prometheus]

Greetings fellow internauts,

This is a link to my previous thread.

I am still seeking help, feedback, advice, etc. I admit to being pretty clueless and having little insight into my situation. Thank you all for your valued input. It was suggested that i update the board on what has been happening for me so here goes.

Life has continued much the same for me. My 18th wedding anniversary came and went without fuss or fanfare in October. November saw me take a weeks vacation from my work. I spent the time getting a life. I bought a surfboard and have been learning how to surf. That has been way outside my comfort zone. Very enjoyable, nonetheless.

December was a difficult month for me. My wife did not want to share in any of the Christmas gift buying so we shopped separately for the kids and relatives gifts. The separateness seemed so contrived and forced - at least to me.

January saw me take a holiday from work for a couple of weeks. My intent was to take the kids on a holiday to see my father. They have never had much contact with him as he lives 1000km or so from where we are. In the end, only my eldest son was willing to come with me. My two younger children changed their mind at the last minute and stayed behind. Oh, well. My 18yo son and i had an OK time. I was able to relax.


So, now it is February. The year is not new any longer but somehow i feel that it is New Year for me. Strange.