separated 8 weeks still on the journey

[paul19510]

Journal: I visited via phone with an old friend who has been in this place and has done her inner work. She reminds me of some of the gets her. She was kind enough to speak with me for w long time last evening to help me understand myself better. While she did not know of this particular body of work that we are naviagating through in this site, she was familair with the concepts and she agreed with much of the ideas set forth by MWD. In the end my friend reminded me that come what may, fixing and saving myself is really all there is. She was generous with 2x4s when I needed them. When I wanted to complain about things she helped me lookn at it from my W point of view and to rewlize certsij things that I said or did that also contributed to my current situation and the death of my M. She also complimented me forndoi g the work I am doing. She was realistic and toldnme from a woman's. Point of view that she felt W and I had passed a point in our road where we would only be able to build a neenlife someday if we proceeded with completely letting each other go and perhapsnmoving through D. She likened my current wish to fix ornsave things to a cigarette additiction. Its bad for me, but familiar so, I'm having trouble stopping it. Emotionally. She said she felt my addiction would hurtnme just like cancer if I don't. Stop. I needed to hear that and I am greatful that she took her time to help me