Just from what you've written above that feels like a torture-fest and not sustainable. If you found out you only had 10 more years to live what would you like them to be like and how many of them would you sacrifice for your current sitch? Your H came back but did not recommit and is ignoring your needs. Therefore you are still DB'ing and not piecing. I would GAL with every minute you have and try to get H to Retrovaille
Married 18, Together 20, Now Divorced M: 48, W: 50, D: 18, S: 16, D: 12 Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 7/13/11 Start Reconcile: 8/15/11 Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 5/1/2014 (Divorced) In a New Relationship: 3/2015