MLC and Covert Depression at 62?

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Innis - first, I'm sorry you are here, but it's truly one of the best places to be for what you are going through. Gosh, I just finished reading your thread and you are experiencing what we all have or are currently. Your H sounds just like mine. Surprising how similar/scripted all of this is, isn't it?

Yes, handing it over to God (and I am not a a conventionally religious person)sure does help. Ask for help everyday, but remember to ask for help for your H as well. He's going through his own personal hell - demons we can't even imagine even though he has a mask on to hide it all. But it doesn't lessen your pain from being totally cut out of his life - as if you don't even exist. I feel the same way as you. I recently told my H that I felt like he just cut me off like a diseased appendage and threw me in a ditch by the side of the road. Probably shouldn't have said it, but I have expressed little to him over the past 9 months this has been going on. We are now seeing a mediator working toward D. Bleck.....

Anyway, my labored point (sorry)is by releasing it to a higher power is going to help so much. Doesn't mean you aren't going to have those down days, but realizing you have no control over him and trusting God to deal with him, will help you stay the course. It's his journey, one you are not allowed to go on with him despite your want to do so. You have a daughter who needs you so much more - be the woman you want her to be.

And come here often where you are unconditionally loved and highly understood.

My love to to you.