Four weeks in, hopeful but just starting!

[KGirl]

So my H accidentally left his email up on the computer. And of course, I had to look.

It was disgusting. He has threads with this other guy from work, that I knew was kind of gross, but it's really just beyond belief. Guy from work tells H things about how I'm "insane", a "nutbag", a "controlling manipulative freak", etc. He's telling H that he needs to get out and find what's right for him, but (thankfully) that "banging the sleazebag pregnant woman from work isn't the right answer, even if you are starting to see her outside of work". Definitely did not know he was hanging out with her outside of work. Most of this could just be talk that my H is not reciprocating (he only responded back specifically to any of these things with a "you're right, it's insane to keep talking to her.") But what really got me was something this guy said about sex. The guy said something gross like "in one 2 day period I QUADRUPLED (8) your lifetime total of schwanking (2)". Yes, this is a 50-some year old man that uses these words than talking to my H. But wait.. where did the second person come from? We started dating when we were 18, he was my first, the couple of times we broke up he said he did not sleep with anyone else, didn't even come close. So now I've been lied to about him being with another person at some point in the past 10 years..? Or maybe he's just lying to this guy because it's embarrassed his number is only 1?

Oh my god. I feel so sick right now. I know people might say things to others/types things they don't really mean in the moment especially if they think the other person isn't looking. I hate this guy H is talking to for filling his head with ridiculous ideas... like "don't waste your time and money reading books or going to counseling, if you don't like her you don't like her, get rid of her moldy @ss" (again, who talks like this??) He's really advising him to not read anything or do counseling? Because clearly this guy at 50-something, single, and regularly hiring hookers, totally knows what he's talking about.

I hope the second person isn't the woman from work, and that her pregnancy is in fact her from her husband and not my H. I really don't know what to do at this point. We had a good night last night talking, watching the olympics ceremony, etc. and now I feel like it's all just an act. I feel like I need to get out NOW.