I'm as at peace with it as I can be. He was planning to proceed anyway. It's not so much my decision as it was me accepting his decision.
We still get along really well given the circumstances and I still treat him with a lot more respect than he has probably earned recently.
The reality is I still love him to death and would love to fix this but he is still with OW (on again, off again best I can tell) and has told me he doesn't want to work on the marriage and said we are done, it can never work, he's calling his attorney.
Nobody knows what the future holds but I'm certainly not hoping for or expecting anything.
I agree he's got an addiction and other issues that need to be treated but he has completely stopped therapy. I also need to protect myself financially. While in this affair fog or whatever it is he has blown a significant amount of Money and accumulated debt traveling the country with OW. He used to be very smart with money. I'm not so confident now.
