Reaching out for support and advice 3

[bluesgal]

Hmmm. Detached or numb? Since my H left, I feel almost no emotion when I am around him. I don't entertain his whereabouts in my head. I don't wonder who he's with. My stomach does not swirl with uneasiness.

I am throwing myself into GAL. I am surrounding myself with people that love me and just doing things I love.

H was very kind to me today. It was our first public outing since we've announced S. I didn't feel like all eyes were on us like I thought I would. It was parents night at D15 Bball game. He left the gym for a bit after her game to check on our S6 and actually missed our daughter handing us our card and flowers. H was so upset, I thought he was going to cry. His voice cracked as he was walking me and S to our car to say goodbye. He kissed S goodbye and barely made eye contact with me. He is so far away.