She left - My Story, First Post

[gogofo]

3boyz
Thanks for the support, it does help to know that I am not alone in my struggle. I think the W and I are on a good neutral ground that I hope expands. I keep hoping that things will settle down and we can talk, but with her still pursuing the doctorate she has little time.

I want so bad to have the chance to perform in the R with my new found goals and practice new R skills that it hurts. Every day there are things that I can find that remind me of something we shared together.

I am confused about what to do about Valentine's Day. She flat out told me a couple of weeks ago that she did not want to do V-day or her birthday on the 25th. I think what she meant was that she did not want presents or grand gestures. I keep thinking that if I was emotionally absent that I need to show support on these days.

My idea is to write her a letter explaining how proud of her I am and how wonderful she is, all the while trying to not use the word "love" because I think it would be detrimental to say "love". Is this a good idea? In my mind I think it is.

I am currently out of town, but have been trying to keep communication open with text messages. Contact and talking feels good, even if it is about kids, weather, etc.