Four weeks in, hopeful but just starting!

[KGirl]

I did actually get an answer to my email about financial questions - a text during work today saying "about your email, I'll pay for my half of the insurance, and we can figure out what I owe you for the phone." So at least I'm getting answers about something.. but no hints about what anything "means" going forward.

I'm kind of freaking out. OK, kind of is an understatement, majorly freaking out. Tonight is the first night since BD that H is not home or where I expected him to be... he typically comes home from work around 5:30pm our time and it is now 8pm. Usually he has soccer on Thursday nights but all his stuff is here and his work bag is not, so he never came home from work. My mind is all over the place... has he finally moved his relationship with the OW at work from just workplace conversation to something more? Is it just dinner with friends? Maybe he has a work event? I guess what hurts more is he no longer feels the need to let me know if he's going to be home late or not. I understand why he has no obligation to if he does want a divorce...but him not letting me know that he'd be home late or going somewhere else at work was a big issue in the past, so he knows that it's a sore spot with me. I guess I feel like him not letting me know is giving me the message that he really is done and has no interest in trying to repair/rebuild things with me.

Any good tips on how to cope with this when your H is still living at home (and therefore it's too easy to stress out about where he might be when he's not home) besides GAL? This morning I told myself to keep this up until March 15, as that will be 3 months since BD, and I could evaluate them or ask him what's going on if there's no changes. Now tonight with him being gone I don't feel like I can stand it, and I would be so much less stressed if I just moved out and didn't have to know what he was doing or not doing.