Afraid I have waited too long

[nit84]

Well I scheduled my first apt with a DB coach for tomorrow. I believe it will help me but until the appt I hope the W does not come home tonight and get fired up because the utility bill that she forgot to or just didn't pay last month came in the mail today so it will be double this month. I have already given my portion for last months bill so that plus half this months will be her responsibility.

In the summer and through the fall she was very good about paying the bills in a timely fashion. Since about Thanksgiving she has paid them but not as early as usual and forgetting last months utility bill is a first all together since we have been M. I imagine, not only did it have to do with the holidays and me moving back home but also she saw her financial crisis coming.

I didn't expect the W to jump for joy when I mentioned the job opening I guess to her it was like I was cornering her with it by even thinking about telling her.

I guess in a way it was me throwing it in her face that she doesn't have a job. In reality, all I was trying to do was allow her the opportunity to take it or just say no. No expectations came with the mention, she never would have known about this if I didn't tell her.

If I didn't tell her and she caught wind of it then it would have been my fault she doesn't have a job because if I had only told her about this opportunity she would have certainly taken it. It is just the way she would spin it. Damned if I do and Damned if I don't. I suppose that is how most of us in here feel though.