You can't make someone see the truth if they don't want to.
This is so true M. My H thinks that everyone will be fine and dandy. My kids dont even know that he has left yet and they are already sad.
So I am taking the kids away for the weekend on a ski trip with my family to a local ski resort that by B and SIL work at on the weekends as ski patrol. We took the same trip last January with my H. Our M was already falling apart. I am pretty sure that the week before our trip OW's H showed up at our H and told me about the A. Since OW's H is a serial liar (hence the serving of prison time), I chose to believe H and not OW's H. I remember hoping that the trip would give us some time to reconnect and forget about all the drama. The weekend away was tension filled, which was par for the course then.
But there is a moment from that trip that I will never forget. H and I took S5 snow tubing for the first time. We had an absolute blast. I vividly remember the moment when H and I looked into each others eyes and my H smiled, not only with his mouth but with his eyes. I remember thinking to myself that I had not seen that H in months. I can still see the picture in my mind thinking back to that weekend. I actually thought to myself "we are going to be ok." H joked/flirted with me the rest of the time we were tubing. That was the last time that I remember feeling loved by my H. It was only a split second in time, but I remember feeling happy and hopeful that we could turn things around. Guess I was wrong. I honestly never thought that we would be in this place a year later. While it makes me sad that we are S, I am glad to not have a life filled with so much tension and drama.
So I will take the boys and make new memories. Although my B and SIL are obsessed with skiing, I am pretty horrible. This is definitely my H's thing. He grew up taking trips out west to ski. I know that it is driving him crazy that I will be taking the boys and not him (although he is perfectly capable of taking them if he wanted to). I figure that I can get out there and learn to ski right along with my boys.
