Please don't try to figure it out. Your h is speaking in MLC script language. They will say all kinds of things that come out of left field. He doesn't know how long it will be and he will justify leaving w/any excuse other than the one that he is broken and needs professional help.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
