For some reason, this made me cry at my desk. I guess that I just really miss feeling loved. I miss feeling like a complete family. It probably does not help that S3 broke down in tears yesterday because he did not understand why he could not eat dinner with both his mommy and daddy. Boo!! It amazes me how our Hs can just walk away and not fully comprehend the damage that they are causing to the people they should love the most in the world.
Sigh. At some point I hope to accept that I will never understand this. I just have to think that they have a story in their heads that allows them to feel OK about it. I don't think that I could ever lie to myself that convincingly about something with so much evidence to the contrary right in my face . . . but I guess some people can? I know my H has told himself that our children will be better off. I could give him 1,000 articles about how D screws up kids, but he would still be sure of his story. And then, this is the funny part. He would say that his parents are D, and he turned out fine. LOL.
You can't make someone see the truth if they don't want to.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
