You will get to that part where the cloud over your happiness will go away. One of the things I learned early going through my sitch is a motto I still use to this day. "Happiness is a choice. It's something I choose everyday!". Happiness truly is a choice. It becomes more then just words once you realize that you can only worry about the things you control. You can't control your H or the feelings/desires he has. All you can control is you. Once I understood that and started following it, I understood that I can choose to be happy, or let others dictate my mood and be miserable.
So, what are you doing for YOU through this? I know it's hard to stay busy being the mother of 3 kids. You need to make sure you make some time for yourself. Maybe ask the 16YO to babysit and you go out with some girlfriends.
