He did admit in his BD email to me that he was depressed. However he blamed me for it. He said that for his own peace of mind he needed to end the relationship - that he had been greatly concerned, worried and feeling a lot of pressure. At the time I didnt even really take the depression into consideration. I was more shocked by the way he said that he wanted a new beginning and that same doors must be therefore closed. He then came out with the usual BS about I want to be your friend (but I know you dont want that - I am sad about it but I have to respect your decision) etc etc. We are different people - its no ones fault - thats the way it is. I need time and space to think. I only want email contact as I cant handle any verbal or emotional pressure etc etc. I of course did not know about OW at that point. I know it isnt me Lois - I truly did everything I could to be in relationship with him. But he just kept detaching and detaching - right in front of our eyes. After reading some threads re MLC and depression my WAP is a poster image of this.....the time frames, the symptoms - everything... There hasnt been any ick (monster behaviour, spewing etc) coming my way - just complete cutting off - cold - indifferent - wanting to get our things out asap. He moved all of my belongings out of our bedroom before I even returned from Oz. My pain is really solid in my heart tonight.... Thank you for listening x
