Yes - I didnt think of it this way - he has had time to disconnect his feelings for me. I just didnt read it in that way. If anything I put it down to the depression mounting. Maybe they are interconnected??? If he has time to disconnect from feelings/emotions about me/us does that mean that they are still there buried or completely gone. I wonder? Trying to keep focus on us - no word on my grandfather I am afraid. His breathing is getting worse,,,,,,,,,is struggling and in a lot of pain. So there is slow and steady deterioration. Thank you for asking Job - I appreciate it. Re OW - thank you for reminding me on what the underlying truth is. It is easy to be seduced by the aura that they send out. WAP is ac8ing relieved, free and "rejuvenated" - just like he said he wanted to be.....his "new beginning" I think I have to root myself in my knowledge of my worth and my D's worth, of our bond, of the fact that I have loved fully and openly (even though I am suffering now). I have to remind myself that unlike WAP I couldnt imagine deferring to OM.. Then again, I am not in MLC x
