This is a hard one to answer today. Up until a month ago, I was standing for my marriage. Today, I'm turning it over to God. I want my H to find himself and face his demons--more for the sake of my kids than for me.
I've changed. I expect more today than I did 2 years ago when he left.
He left 2 years ago, almost exactly. I discovered an EA and threw him out. He never returned. He wanted to be kicked out. He lived with the OW on and off throughout the last two years and invited her to move into his apartment last summer. He kept it a secret and I pushed him for the truth.
I see my marriage differently than I did. I see it more honestly. There were beautiful moments. There was also a lot of immaturity than I wouldn't choose to tolerate anymore.
I sorta have a date on Saturday and I'm giving the outcome of all this to God.
My husband made life a whole lot more difficult than it needs to be. Today, my mantra is "Take Joy." If he isn't willing to do the work, then I'm going to continue moving on with my life.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
