separated 8 weeks still on the journey

[paul19510]

thanks Bug. you've been there for me. I see that. I am easy. feed me a good meal, hold my hand, spend some time with me and I'm happy. She can't and you're right she hasn't in a very long time.

From what she said yesterday, its not really my fault per se. I didn't do or not do something specifically. there wasn't any magic thing I could do that would have stopped this.

This is stuff SHE feels....I keep feeling like there's a solution. I can see many other people approaching me now that are kind and warm and want to spend time with me. Why wouldn't I want that? Why instead would I want to look back at this broken mess??

This is like a nightmare I can't wake up from....I just want to wake up. and yes, now that I look at it, part of me wanted, wants her to see that this is broken but is fixable.

its causing so much pain for me and the kids and probably her too. its just not right.