separated 8 weeks still on the journey

[paul19510]

my sentence inserted to the middle of the quote from LT above.

HI LT. perhaps. Although it makes no sense to not be "done". Some part of me wishes she would see. I've wished that for years. She's Not going to. Its very unhealthy for me to be in that place. I must move forward and heal.

other journaling: I went to the gym and worked with the HITT class. I really had to push myself but I'm glad I did.

You were right Bug, my emotions are all over the board. Tears one minute, anger and frustration the next. I doesn't help that my kids are starting to show me their pain again. they are circling back now too. UGH.

I have been over and over my hour long chat with W in my head. I keep searching for any clues or answers. Something I didn't understand or respond to yesterday....I hear regrets and hear that she's upset. but that changes nothing. She's not helping us d anything by reaching out to resolve the current situation. that speaks volumes.