Knowing (well, not knowing, but signs pointing to) that my H has found himself someone to replace me just plain hurts. Just the overall feeling that I am a piece of garbage to my H.
I know this feeling all too well. I am pretty sure that I screamed it at my H when I found out about his A. So, I completely understand the feeling of being disposable to someone who promised to love you and protect you forever. I hurts a TON.
And it is okay to cry. The decisions that you are having to make are difficult. If you did not have a bad day here and there, I would be worried. The good thing is that you are having many more good days than bad.
However, GM is 100% correct. Your H is on a search to fill a void within himself. The OW is just stroking your H's ego, likely making him feel like a teenager again. He will continue to bounce around looking for external sources to make him happy until he runs out of people to blame or things to try and finally looks within himself.
