It sounds like your H is completely lost right now and has no idea how to find whatever it is that he is looking for. Clearly that is all your fault. ??
I am glad that you have been able to find some peace in your home and even some happiness! I sure hope your H gets it together, but yes, that is on him not you.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
