Wishing You Were Here and then Setting It On Fire

[BrightFuture]

Oh, Portia, don’t make more out of than it is. I have the same thoughts about H having the affairs under the disguise of female friends. I just found out that it was not the case. Yes, I snooped again, while I was in our vacation home. I think he was telling the truth that these women I suspected as OWs were just friends.

I know how frustrating it is to get the silence after some attempts for a contact. It is just part of the process. I was recently re-reading the AliSuddenly’s treads. Her sitch was unique, because she had some mutual friends who constantly reported on her SO. She, like you, went through some times of no contact. It doesn’t mean that Skippy is not going to contact you. Who knows what is going on with him right now.

I want him to feel the loss of me and his part in it, but don't quite trust the universe to teach him that. I feel small for not being able to wish him happy. I don't. I am working on it, but I don't.

This… I seem to be unable to wish H happy too, and I’m working on it. I trust in the universe though. What goes around comes around.

I feel stupid for not having ditched him out of my life already. Worse, I wish there was some reassurance that things might work out after all. I hate the ghouls.

And this… I guess we both need more time.