How will changing forums be of a help to you?

Your H sounds very depressed (not diagnosing, just surmising) and needs treatment, that's his to figure out.

Your post sound so much lighter! I'm happy you're feeling happy?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss