separated 8 weeks still on the journey

[paul19510]

journal: I took the W coffee at the barn. I told her I am giving up and can't live apart like this. I reminded her that I still cared for her very much but I feel that there is nothing in our current situation that is appealing to me. She said that see feels healthier apart. I agreed that this is what is it and told her I accept it.

I told her I intend to file for divorce either as a joint effort or separately(the L gave me both options and said joint would cost us less). I told her this is not what I want but it is what I accept as the facts. I asked her if there was something I didn't see or understand. She said she didn't think so.

It felt good to tell her what's been on my mind. I asked her to say anything about her side. She said she can't put I into words. More vagueness....

onward and upward. I will survive this.