I'm just catching up on your thread. It seems you have a lot to consider and it is difficult. A good friend of mine stood for almost 2 years. You have to do what feels best for you, and I understand the confusion associated with "I don't think he would do this but I also didn't believe he would do x." The insanity can make a girl's skinny jeans baggy:)
As my friend said yesterday, stay on topic and you will get where you need to go.
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer