Back home, having a very hard time!!!

[indigo1]

My W is a very nonconfrontational person and worries more about everyone else's feelings over her own. It eats her alive to know that someone is upset with her. As far as talking with BF, they are very close. This friend was here almost everyday while we were separated helping my W. I talk about all of this stuff to a close friend as well even if I don't take his advise. If I did take his advise I certainly wouldn't be with my W right now.

As far as what I want. I want to finally be in a great M. To be happy and really enjoy life with the two people that mean the most to me. I want this because I have spent enough of my life keeping my emotions hidden and not allowing myself to open up. I never let my W in emotionally like I should have, I'm ready to let it go now.

To get there I'm willing to forgive my W for this recent mess. I'm willing to let her earn my complete trust back again. I'm willing to open myself up to possible hurt if we cannot make things work in the long run. I know that if I do not give this M my all I will only be wasting my time.

Have to get to work be back later