Thank you Melissa, one very positive thing about reading your thread and others is that I don't feel quite as alone. It gives me some comfort to know that other WAS have the same verbiage and feelings.
I have not seen my H since he told me he wanted a divorce. He travels for work and will be back for a few days on Thursday. We have emailed and texted. He has retained a lawyer using his bonus money that he just received. I think he was waiting for the bonus before proceeding with the divorce. I don't even know how I'm going to act around him, although I have now read DR and will work on the LRT. It is hard for me to act "as if" at this point so I think the best thing is to stay out of the way. He wants to continue staying at the house when he is in town until the divorce is final.
I have been thinking about looking into a divorce support group in my area, and trying to come up with other GAL activities.
M45 H46 M16 yrs D17, D10, D7 DB 1-23-2014 H filed D 2-14-2014