Went over to the house on Sunday. W had asked me to bring over some cat litter and to cut their nails. She had me look at our taxes and look at the taxes for her father's estate. We took some time and looked those over. She then said that she had not filed the D papers, but planned to soon. We did not argue, she was very matter of fact. She said with it being 6 months since we've been separated (next week), she felt it was time to file. That she has not changed her mind once in those 6 months that the D is the answer. Also told me that in the last 6 months, she has not ever had one thought about getting back together with me. (that was heartbreaking to hear). She reiterated that her heart was not in it anymore and that it was time for her to move on. I validated her feelings and apologized for my actions again. She also said she could never forgive me for what I'd done. I told her I understand. She brought up the finances and said she still felt I should walk away with just the clothes on my back and that's it. She feels I should not get 1/2 the equity or anything else. That she can't afford it, esp with their summer home expenses. She also said she felt this way since this was all my fault and she was the victim of what I'd done. I was calm and explained that I understood why she felt that way and for us to leave that piece of it to the attorneys. Before I left, she asked if she had further questions on the taxes or her 401k, if I would be ok with her asking me them and I said of course. That if she had any questions at all, i would be happy to help. She also told me she is planning some vacation time in June and July...asked if I would be able to take care of the cats during those times. I said yes, that would be fine. That was about it. I must say, validating her feelings like I did made me feel like it truly is the end. I was very upset after I left...did a lot of crying and was very sad. I'm not sure what to do at this point...therapy appt tonight.
