Back home, having a very hard time!!!

[indigo1]

Of course I want to trust her again, that is the only way we will ever get past this mess and move on. I know that in time I can trust her again and forgive her for this. There is no doubt that she is having a hard time right now. I understand that, but if she wants us to work she needs to end this.

I honestly am very close to forgiving me past actions completely. I know I have become a much better man and want to continue to grow. I want this to work more than anything, but my W needs to be on the same page in order for that to happen.

I also do appreciate my W telling me about the OM's W suspicions. She has lied to me but also been open when confronted. She knows I can tell when she is being dishonest. W says she lies to protect my feelings which I believe is the truth. I told her earlier that there is no scenario in which someone's feeling do not get hurt. W can only decide who's feelings those are.