Navigating through this is not easy NY. I would spend less time, energy and effort worrying about if you took a step back or...a step forward. Keep the focus on you, the kids and on being the man you want to be. The rest will all fall into play.
Plus - the less you think about it the more peace you will have.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
