So sorry Melissa. The grass is always greener in the fantasy land of our WASs minds.
I hope w/ whatever you choose to do moving forward, you'll begin to have peace of mind & direction, more and more.
me: 30 H:30 tgthr:7 m:4 no kids 5 counseling sessions initiated by H as a LR: Oct 2012 long distance marriage b/c of work since Nov 2012 official BD: July 2013 nothing filed 1/1/14 I dropped the rope