melissag XII - must. detach.

[melissag]

You and I are both grossed out right now. F*cking people man...

I really hope you figure out what to do. I hope you figure out a way to find peace. This sh*t storm you're in sure makes it difficult.

Thanks, 2TH.

This is going to sound weird, but I think that the timing of all this has worked out pretty well. In the sense that I really am able to handle this now, whereas I wouldn't have been a few months ago.

So I guess I should thank my H for getting douchier and douchier slowly, so it gave me some time to get used to it.

I truly thought, at the time that H moved out, that we were going in the right direction.

Wrong.

He is going in the completely opposite direction.

Perhaps (though I doubt it), someday he will come back in my direction. But that's not something I am going to even waste time hoping for right now. I have got to put my energy into my kids and rebuilding my own life.

I think I know what I am going to do. I need to sleep on it, and get the answers to some details about money and custody and what happens between filing and final orders, but unless the answers are really far off from what I think they are, I am going to file.