What a day, didn't sleep much last night mind was racing so had to load up on caffeine during the day, that set up the events for what follows. D had her 1st 5th grade band concert W & I went, we had both been running all day before, during, & after work. Dropped D off at concert then went to get a coffee, just what needed more caffeine. W said I was acting edgey, told her I've been running all day. Went back to the school the concert was at tried finding a place to park out front, no luck; well we gave it a try we both said. "Yep no harm in trying, there's a lit of things that could apply to" I said. "Told you you were on edge" W said. This was when MC talk came up, W was & still is mad at me about me saying NO to MC before I moved out when fighting was at its worst. I told her I didn't know as much about it then or believe in it then but had been during some reading & research on its benefits & am wanting/willing to give it a try.
W said she wasn't ready for MC & hadn't thought about D since the week after I moved out, don't think I believe her. W also said she thought kids were in a good routine, stress free environment & understood the living situation. W also wasn't sure if I could maintain the actions she was noticing in my behavior. I told her that I had learned from my past & was taking it day by day.
W also mentioned that a co-worker was also having troubles at home & they had talked to each other about it. That's as far as she went. Overall the night went well besides our little "serious talk" & we left on a good note.
I know I shouldn't of brought MC up but I was trying to get a feel for what W was thinking. As another follower stated "your spouse knows you best" & this is true when W noticed I was acting edgey. I'm hoping I didn't take 2 steps back in my attempt to make things right, sometimes I speak before I think it through, that gas been a past problem that I'm still working on.
